For many of us, losing Robin wasn't the same as learning about the death of another well-known star or personality on the international stage. It was Robin Williams, the guy we were just astounded to see and hear when we watched him perform. "Who is this guy?" I remember thinking to myself when I first watched the show "Mork and Mindy", while still in middle school. Could he really be an alien? It caught me off guard for a moment as this other-worldly being came spilling out of this strange, small man.
He was so different, really. Something had taken him over it seemed, and he was no longer human.
Of course this was just another testimony to his extraordinary performing skills. You couldn't wait for him to come back into the scene to see what he would do next. We would find ourselves rolling on the floor laughing, and all the buzz about it at school the next day.
In just the same way that other exceptional beings throughout history have brought us their particular brand of genius, so too did Robin, in his particular thread of genius: comedy. When you watched him, you had to really pay attention because his mind and communication went so fast. You could see the gears rolling in there as he would catch these veins of thought and pull them down for us to hear and see and feel. This is what genius does, this is what genius is, and this is what Robin brought to us in this world.
This video below is an early interview Robin had with Oprah, and he actually discusses the fact that he is channeling, a word and a concept that, in 1992 was fairly new and strange.
In a just a small section of this interview, Robin explains exactly what it is to receive that higher intelligence, and deliver it as he is receiving it. Brilliant. That's what he was.
What is more upsetting to me about losing Robin than other stars I have known and loved is not only that we lost him, but that he chose to take his own life. "Why?" we want to ask. "How could he do that?" And we are confused and seeking to understand: 'Why Robin, why?'
We can only guess that in his private, internal moments, there was a deep unhappiness and despair. That he wanted to leave this life, and felt himself to be better off if he did. This can be is such a strong and driving force behind anyone choosing to take their own life. The false belief that life cannot be beautiful and fulfilling, here and now.
Robin must have felt quite alone and isolated. Sure, there were people around. His wife, he had three children, and countless professional colleagues and friends. But still, you can be surrounded by a crowd, and remain completely and utterly alone, can't you? It is the aloneness of the mind.
Why someone hadn't been there for him during these times is what is so frustrating to me. I know so many healers and energy workers are in the world, and the thought that came to me was, "Yes, but they're all hiding out". Very few make themselves readily available for the work that could be theirs. There are far more healers in the world than those that are visible and available for us. So many simply remain hidden.
Robin has in his eyes a deep kindness and compassion that truly tells you he understood heartaches and the pain of humanity. When he performed in "Good Morning Vietnam", you saw how all he wanted to do was serve these guys who were out there in the field and just deliver them a bit of respite, no matter how much trouble it might bring him from his commanding officer. Sure, this was a movie and a script, but director Barry Levinson knew also that this was going to be a vehicle through which Robin could unleash his raw talent and genius. All the material delivered during his radio show monologues were unscripted, and purely his own 'channeling'.
In one scene I remember so clearly, he is crossing paths with several trucks loaded with young soldiers off to fight in an area that is quite dangerous. Robin's character knows of this danger, and that it will likely cause many of these boys to lose their lives. Through his character's eyes, you see an attempt to make them laugh, and yet the compassion felt for them shines through just as strong. A kind of acting that is so real and authentic, it is non-acting. One by one, he asks each of the boys - so young and innocent - what their names are and where are they from. Improv at it's best, with Robin's real character showing us his compassion.
Robin's life and activities were wide and varied. He participated in countless charity events, and supported the troops whenever he could. He stood strong for homeless men by bringing more attention to the issue. Robin could not have had compassion for those that suffer unless he knew suffering himself. As a healer, I just so wish someone could have been there for him to help guide him through this part of the journey in his life.
All can be healed. With willingness and intent - all can be healed.
I'm going to use this moment of opportunity to double down on my own healing practice and to call out to other healers that there is work for you to do in assisting people everywhere. I'm sure you know this already. What you may need reminding of is that it does not serve anyone - not you nor humanity - to be holding yourself back and refraining from implementing and growing your own healing practice. You know what you need to do. All of us do, and we are being called now, to rise up and ramp up our outward expression of our healing services in the world.
In your own communities, in your own lives, there are people seeking help, and it is your responsibility to your own gift to utilize what you have been given, and have come here to extend.
Robin shouldn't have had to suffer. If more healers were present, more visible, more 'out there', perhaps the whole concept of energy healing wouldn't remain in the realm of the 'woo-woo'. Let me tell you something, 'woo-woo' is good. If it can or could have saved one life, the life of one of our most beloved brothers, than why shouldn't we call it out and give it the place it deserves to have in our society? It is a tool, a practice, a vehicle for bringing the darkness into the light.
If you're not feeling so well-fulfilled in exercising your own gifts as a healer, simply start by being a trusted friend to someone, anyone, now. Pick up the phone, and give them a call. See how they are. Forget about trying to fix anything, just listen.
At times that is all that is needed.
With much love and compassion,